I’m speechless. I’m out of breath. I stay in pain. I’m looking for the long excuse, that justifies a feeling that does not have to be.

Steps back… looking old and already forgotten customs. The ones I thought I have already buried, but… the Reality once overcome the limits of this fragile emotional understanding.

And those habits from yesterday? Hadn’t they left? wasn’t it enough deep cleaning done?

Ah, but those habits were gaining strength in the unconscious, and today they are so strong that for a little while will be present, then they will disappear playing with my existence from somewhere lost of that hidden place only mine

– I’m losing the battle. Reality overtakes me again, and again I crossed the boundary.

My inner self says almost out loud. I’m confused. I don’t even know which side am I on. I was told – keep walking. I did it, but I don’t know where I am anymore! Do I want to know? Walk. Learn and remember every dag.

Excuses and more excuses and I don’t even know what they excuse.

Confusion. Defeat. Heavy and tired body. It hurt, Everything hurts.

Excuses to sleep? So as not feel terminally damaged? Ah… That now too late. Already, the dream floods me, everything is forgotten. Everything continues dragging me down and dragging all the obstacles of this way!

And.. that despite demand of right from wrong? The bad and the good? Stay tuned! «The bad must stop weighing in.» «Must be avoided» -Too much focus, I know- One of those old ways.

Tomorrow will be a new day to start… dragging custom, habits, ways?

I want to rest but.. The question: Who will wake up tomorrow? is what does not let me sleep.